Author: Dorothy Koomson
Pages: 672
Publish Date: 2011
Start Reading Date: 4th January 2020
End Reading Date: 14th January 2020
My Goodreads Rating: 5*
This is the first book I am starting in 2020, but the second I’ll have finished First Thoughts
With all my Dorothy Koomson books I don’t want to read or watch anything related to them. So I am going into the book totally blind.
While Reading
I don’t know why but I’m 30 pages in and I don’t like the woman who Tami called to look after the kids while she went to the police station. There is something about her.
I’m a few more pages on and I feel a little sorry for her.
Though Scott has been arrested for a serious crime (and I don’t know the outcome as I am writing this bit) I like him
Right now I am finding hard to understand Beatrix. I’m not particularly liking her. Her dating problems seem really insignificant. She seems really insignificant.
When something like what Scott has been accused of, and it comes from such a close friend who do you believe. I know you should always believe the woman, but sometimes just sometimes they lie.
I’m just over 100 pages of the book and I don’t know how I feel about it, I don’t love it as much as many of her other books, but I don’t hate it either. It’s definitely a book that you have to keep track of super carefully
I’ve always believed there is three sides to a story, (his side, her side and the truth) and in this book it’s Mirabelle’s story and Scott’s story and what actually happened.
At the point that I’m currently at in the book I don’t know who to believe because both sides are really putting it out there. When I believe one the other comes along and I’m believing them. When it comes to the crime that Scott is accused of its easy to say believe the woman, but sometimes it’s not that simple
Ok so I’ve come to the realization that you have to expect the unexpected with Dorothy Koomson and her writing. I wasn’t expecting there to be a murder thrown into the mix. But I kinda love it.
As I’ve previously mentioned I really don’t like Beatrix. I don’t know if she is meant to be liked or not but I don’t like her. What Mirabelle said to her in the gym felt right. Bea is one of those women who wouldn’t be a feminist because she’d think that feminism would be all men hating.
Ok so I am starting to love the book. I think it’s going to get interesting. For the simple fact there are so many suspects
Now that Mirabelle has died, and your seeing more of her background through her daughter, I am back at that stage where I don’t know if I believe her when it comes to the allegations agains Scott, because through her daughter you can see snippets of her life where she’s lied to people about her daughter.
I think Fleur wants a mother figure that Mirabelle never gave her and that her step mother is incapable of doing, and that’s why she is clinging onto Tami. I think as well that she is very much a typical young woman where she thinks her dad is controlling her life. We’ve only seen glimpses in to Mirabelle’s life before everything that’s happened.
I’m so confused. But in a good way. Scott is having an affair, but not who you thinking it’s with, though I kinda had a clue but never really put two and two together.
Mirabelle is gay, though that shouldn’t matter, if she was assaulted by Scott then I wonder why she backtracked on her statement.
I knew there was a reason that I didn’t like Beatrix. Finding out things about her one of my previous statements about her dating life seeming insufficient really rings true. I believe she is one of those women that actually believe that while they are in an affair the married man will leave their partner. But I’m a firm believer that they never will. And if he told her would than he would have done it by now.
I think Tami was right to tell her how she feels when it all comes out, and I agree with her that it all makes sense that Beatrix was trying to replace her. And even after the revolution that she is ill I still don’t like her.
She literally is friends with a woman, having an affair with that woman’s husband, the woman finds out, and that woman is being nice enough to go to the hospital appointments with you because your sick and your mad at her. I know it’s very much a Beatrix heavy at the moment but that’s just part of the book I am on. But right now I am very much with Tami when she gave Beatrix a dressing down. For the simple fact that she (Beatrix) said she loved Scott and Tami telling her she didn’t. For all the reasons that she listed she’s right. Any normal woman would have asked the questions Tami had asked Beatrix to answer about Scott and Beatrix got none of them right. As women I think it’s ingrained into us to ask questions about the person we loves background.
I know I should feel sorry for Beatrix but I don’t. And haven’t throughout the book so far. I find her childish in her actions.
Ok, so I’ve not talked a lot about Mirabelle, I kinda feel a lot more sorry for her in some ways. But in other ways I wish she was more open, and didn’t lie about her daughter.
I shouldn’t be surprised at who the murderer was, but I kinda am, I knew it couldn’t be any of the main 4 characters (Tami, Scott, Beatrix or Fleur) but I was kind of betting it would be Beatrix. So I was surprised at who it was.
Conclusion
It’s one of those books that I don’t love or hate, it definitely takes you on an emotional trip. I felt like I couldn’t trust most of the people in the book. You never know what the real truth is with them. I love the fact that Dorothy takes you through the history of Tami and Scott
I don’t know if it’s Dorothy’s amazing writing that I am just clueless to all the obvious, or I’m just not super clued on.
I liked how the book shows that anyone can change, and not follow their families path, but they can also hide things really well. I just wish that Mirabelle could’ve opened up to Tami about her past. I know it’s not one she’s proud of, but seeing how understanding Tami can be at time’s she wouldn’t have judged.
Tami is a stronger person than I would’ve been if I ever found out my husband cheated on me the way Scott did. The things she did surprised me, and I know I wouldn’t have given anyone the time of day yet she has it in her to do what she did. I know it must’ve been hard for her not to have believed Mirabelle about what happened. But still she knew Scott longer than anyone and sometimes it’s just easier to believe that nothing bad can happen.
Scott, though he did horrible stuff, I do applaud him for leaving behind family who had a bad influence on him as a child/teen.
Beatrix is one of those people that I feel is lucky to have any friends. And I think she is so lucky that Tami stayed by her side when she became ill. I think her love life is a disaster, and if she ever loved Scott like she said she did then she wouldn’t have tried so hard with all those other men. I feel like she is a typical bunny boiler in the fact that when Scott ends it with her she’s wanting him to call and email, and thinks they’ll be together.
With Fleur I think it’s easy for her to hate Mirabelle, without actually knowing what’s going on in her life.
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